First of all, I just want to clarify that I was brought up in a stable, loving home. Unfortunately, I married a man who appeared to be loving, patient and kind. Little did I know he would be the exact opposite. I was married to a physically,, mentally and emotionally unstable man for 20 years. The first time I was hit, I was in shock. He cried and asked for forgiveness. I forgave him and that’s where my mistake was made. It went from one to every time he disagreed or wanted to make a point. I then became afraid to give my opinion. It was a slow process that built up. I was choked, humiliated privately and in front of his friends, taken advantage of, slapped, beaten, objects thrown at me, thrown into walls and made to feel completely worthless. I lost all my friends because of his control over my life. I was never allowed to be myself as a person nor was allowed to choose the clothes I wanted. I lived a life of confinement as someone doing time in jail. When we went out, it was because he was present whether it was a vacation or just going somewhere nearby. If I did go out somewhere, it was with the children but never by myself. He even timed me when I was coming out of work and he calculated the amount of travel time. He even got rid of my pets who I loved dearly. At the end of my marriage, I had to flee for my life as he was on his way to kill me. All I can say to women, the first time that they either curse you, threaten you or show signs of aggressive talk, walk away. You have only one life to live. Don’t allow anyone to mold you to be what they want you to be. Be yourself – love yourself.

– Anonymous

My Rescue Story

“I know the Plans I Have for You”, Declares The Lord, “Plans to Prosper you & Not To Harm you, Plans to give you Hope & a Future” Jeremiah 29:11
         I never imagined the day when Darkness (Death)came over my life so quickly & didn’t see it coming at me but by God’s grace, he came to my rescue with this bright light who breathed life into me. On the day of  October 6, 2018, my life was forever changed with a New Life that I can Testify that Jesus Christ my Lord & Savior saved me from the ” The Pit” of the Enemy’s hands. Growing up I always had Faith & grew up in Church but never truly put God first in my life as I was always taking him for granted but he never left me nor forsake me. The Word of God truly states that no matter what path we chose in life we can always call on our “Heavenly Father” & he will cover you with his loving arms. I grew up within a Broken Home & never was shown love from either parent. My father walked out on my Mother & 5 siblings at a very young age not understanding why. My mother was left with 6 kids not having any support from family or friends so she worked 3 jobs leaving us alone to care for ourselves.  I saw my mother as she suffered heartache not having my father around to care for us or love us so she sought it from other men. She quickly got involved with a man (Domingo) & he moved in with us not even asking our approval. I started to see a change in her as she slowly started to distance herself from us for this man who she thought loved her but was only bringing destruction.  As years past I lived in constant fear for my life of this man (Domingo)who was beating my Mother Daily which leads her to become a drug addict. In those dark moments from a child to an adolescent, I always felt the presence of God who was my protector & his guardian Angels. I was faced with many challenges from abandonment, sexual abuse, physical/emotional abuse to living place to place with no structure or guidance.         I truly believe in my heart that God was in the midst of my suffering & his love for me was the love no other human can ever give to you which is the most beautiful gift on earth. The day arrived when I turned 40 years old God started speaking to me & I clearly heard his voice but I sadly ignored it wanting to plan my life around my career instead of God’s plan.I was married to the Love of my life for 18 years but what I thought was love was built on Lust & being controlled by a Sex Addict who was also an Alcoholic. We had two Boys Anthony & Luke one year apart which brought so much joy me.I strived on being the most Loving Mom to them since I never had that growing up & ensuring them security at all times. From a young age, I raised them in Church & instilled how important it was to put God first. My marriage started to suffer after 18 years of marriage due to a lack of trust on his part of constantly committing adultery. I was always the forgiving & loving wife that gave me chances because I didn’t want a broken family & had such a forgiving heart.  The Enemy came to Steal, Kill& Destroy me on the night of Oct 6 as we celebrated our 18 year Anniversary but God had big plans for me when my body was slowly shutting down from toxic overload in my body which came on suddenly after a night of drinks & dinner. I remember crying out to my husband but he was not helping me but then I cried out loud to God because I was slowly feeling my body shut down & looking death straight in the eye.In those last minutes of fight or flight mode, my heart was beating fast like it was going to jump out of my chest & my skin was turning pale with sweat pouring out of me. The Valley of Dry Bones was all around me something I’ve never experienced in my 40 years but here I was laying there in Darkness ready to die but in those moments God spoke life into my bones to live again & they did. If you don’t believe in the Power of God’s Healing to raise you back from death well I’m here to be a witness that he is the same today, yesterday & forever. I’m a Living Testimony that what the Enemy had planned to take me out God turned it around for his good so I may be his Disciple & share the Gospel of the good news. It is hard to walk with Christ & face oppression but so worth running the race to Victory Lane to win the prize & hear those words ” Well Done” you good & faithful one. My healing journey continued as I was faced with surviving death twice as I underwent a risky surgery on April 2, 2019 removal of my Breast Implants ( Breast Implant Illness)which was slowly killing me & causing 50 symptoms. I’m one year out from my Explant Surgery & getting stronger each day with the Strength of the Lord.  ” I can do all things through Christ who Strengthens Me” Philippians 4:13. I will never leave my Heavenly Father & until the day I take my last breath, I will keep praising him & being obedient to his perfect laws of Righteousness. My life hasn’t always been an easy path but my God is so Big that through all the hardship he has remained Faithful & has kept his promises to me. 

” And we know that all things work together for good to those who are called according to His Purposes” Romans 8:28
My Testimony  Rebecca Angelo